i'm too sleepy for the full treatment my anxieties deserve, so here's an obnoxiously abridged version:
For the first time in my life, I feel academically powerless. I've never believed I just couldn't handle a semester the way I do right now. Challenges keep piling up, and I keep postponing them because I'm afraid that they are impossible. Success isn't happening.
Summer is the cruelest motivation. Especially since my summer nights will be as stressful as they will be unforgettable.
I'm afraid that I am loving too many people out of convenience.
and that's all i'm up for voicing at the moment. good night, all.